Painless pain???

One of the reasons that I haven't written for a couple of months, is that I feel so bad that I have been going through a plateau and haven't been doing ANY of my exercises for 6 weeks! I know! After doing more than my share of the boring, repetitive and sometimes painful exercises for over 5 years - I came to a stop! 

Now, I am going to be in trouble with my lovely OT Lisa, as my little muscle in my right (affected) arm is soft and going away! Lisa is a fantastic and very hard working Occupational Therapist, who is going to see me next Wednesday!!! 

You see, I have been so fed up, that I couldn't be bothered to do the exercises, but you don't realise how quickly your muscles atrophy in such a short space of time, and I didn't realise the Lisa would be able to get me another 6 weeks of Rehabilitation at the Royal Rehabilitation Centre Sydney!

What had happened to me was something that no-one could foresee happening, but had enough of an impact on me to make me not want to do anything! I thought that I had had another, small stroke! 

One day while I was at work, I had a dull headache all day but didn't think anything much about it until I appeared to have 'broken glass' in front of my eyes for at least an hour. I kept blinking it away, except it wasn't going away! Then after a while, I noticed that it was gone and really didn't think about it again. Later that night when my daughter came home and I was speaking to her about her day, she started looking a bit frightened and as she is only 17, it worried me and I thought I was saying 'not to worry, what is the matter', but I was talking 'gobbledegook' and that really got me upset!

We called my neurologist and made an appointment for me to come in and see him. When we did tests etc Dr Joffe said that he thought that I was having a 'painless migraine'! I had never heard of such a thing, but I felt that he at least should know what was wrong with me. The more I mentioned to people about this, the more I heard about it and it the more I heard about it the more people said, 'oh yes, my ***** gets that'! So, I had a 'painless migraine' and apparently it isn't painless at all, but my pain sensors are in a part of my brain that has been altered by the stroke so pain is different in different parts of my body now and I can't explain it, but I can still feel it in a different way!!

After Dr Joffe told me that this is what was happening to me, I was left with....an 'oh no' sensation! Now that I knew that every thing was a-okay with my health, I had to face the prospect of seeing Lisa and telling her that I hadn't done my exercises for...

25.8.2012